We have major news!
On Friday December 18th: Our profile was *officially* made available by our adoption agency for birth parents to see and possibly choose us! We are excited about what God has in store for us! We will be notified of opportunities to be shown to birth families and considered to be their adoptive family! :) The next morning: This happened.....
You are seeing that correctly. That's our positive pregnancy test, conceived naturally.
So.... what's going on?! Well, if you've followed our journey for awhile now, blog or not, you know that we have been trying for 5 years to conceive. Yes, 5 YEARS. We've tried everything humanly possible to conceive, including 11 procedures with a fertility doctor. NOTHING worked. Clinically, we had less than 1% chance of conceiving naturally.
Less than 1%.
Mathematically speaking, that means nearly impossible.
So then what happened? Were the doctors wrong? Did we not "try hard enough"? Did we not "pray hard enough"? Did we finally "relax"? We know exactly what happened:
GOD happened.
See, we never considered adoption. Not that we didn't want adoption; we never even considered it. Meaning, we never even thought of it as a possibility.
To us, we had only ever known natural birth stories, not adoption stories, so it wasn't even a blip on our radar. Until we couldn't have them naturally. Suddenly, with that option taken away from us, we realized after much prayer "oh! there's also adoption! That's what God wants us to pursue!" So we did. And we fell in love with adoption. And got excited about adoption. And committed to adoption, whole heartedly (and financially). Come on. I get a positive pregnancy test literally hours after we are fully committed to our adoption journey? We don't believe in coincidences. Or irony. Or that's "just life." At ALL. God knows EXACTLY what He is doing and more importantly, He knows EXACTLY WHEN to do it! God's plan was always for us to get pregnant AND for us to adopt. So only after we officially were committed to adopting did God bless us additionally with getting pregnant. When our hearts were dedicated to the idea of having a family no matter what form it came to us.
Now the big question: What about the adoption??
Our adoption agency has put our profile on hold and requested that we wait until our child is 1 year old before we start the adoption process again. Nothing changes about our plan to adopt; only the timeline has been adjusted slightly.
Now, there is of course no guarantee that this pregnancy will continue normally. But isn't that the point? NOTHING in this sinful life comes with a guarantee. We have to trust that God is planning a story so unique and so glorifying to HIM that we can do nothing but sit back and be thankful that we have been chosen for this ride. In Him,
PS
While writing this post, it was easy to reflect on the infertility journey that led us to this moment. Music often helped get us through tough times and below we have included one that is special to both of us. It reminded us of who we belonged to, who held our lives and our future. Now, more than ever, it reminds us that God is in control and reigns over all.
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